Happy Independance Day!!!!! a few days late. We had a busy 4th this year and it took me all weekend to recover from it. I did some heavy duty yard work so that contributed to my tiredness - LOL!!!!! Even though I still feel young I have noticed that it takes me a little longer to recover from stuff these days.
I have 5 days left on my medicine. I am so relieved to be done with this but thankful for what this medicine has done for me. I just hope that I return to normal. One thing that I have come to realize that I have matured a little over the last 3 months. I don't always feel that way when I am having a fit but I've grown.
I hope some of my new found maturity will help me get through the next few months. They are going to be difficult. Before this all happened I feel like I was blossoming, like I was coming out of hiding. I didn't want to just be at home all the time I wanted to do stuff but since my diagnoses all I want to do again is hide. I have things in my life I still do I just don't always want to do them. I have to force myself. I hope that goes away.......
I am done with one phase of this and I am on to the next, we'll see what kind of mood that produces. I already have a couple friends who have pretty much removed themselves from my life so we'll see if any others do that too. I guess I can't blame anybody really, I haven't been the easiest person to be around but you expect your friends to understand. I guess some don't or they just don't care.
C'est la vie...........
This is it for now........no, I am not in the best mood right now.....just sad!!!!
My surgery is next week so I will post to let you all know the results, this surgery is the D&C that will make sure that my cancer is gone. Keep your fingers crossed and pray!!!!
Love Shell
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